Wednesday, February 12, 2003
Do I dare show my face in here?
I mean, I have been gone for so long, there is no way that you don't hate me.
Ah well.
At least I can't see or hear your anger and resentment. I will just pretend as though you don't really feel that way. (snickers)
SO HI!
Gosh. Where do I begin? So much shit is going down right now and in order to explain it all, I am going to have to do a brief synapsis of each thing. Ok? Ok.
Let 'er rip!
1) First, foremost, and most importantly, Rita is leaving NYC, two weeks from Saturday. She has been feverishly looking for a new job/apartment in Syracuse and today she found out that she has accomplished half of her goal. She and her boyfriend, Andy, will be living in what we hope will be a beautiful little house with a white picket fence and maybe a swingset in the backyard. Well, maybe not a swingset just yet...but we can still hope. She has two job interviews lined up for this Friday and if all goes well, she will be employed AND have a place to rest her pretty little red head. So, while she is hastily making plans to move, Kelly and I are doing the same. We have found a charming place right in the heart of Times Square. Can ya believe it?!?! The place is extremely small, but the bedrooms are both a good size and the bathroom is bigger than the one we currently have. The refridgerator? Yeah, it's in the living room.
This is the first apartment Kelly and I looked at and we knew immediately that we wanted to jump on it. I mean...it's in the heart of Times Square! What am I? Big and important now??? I don't want to jinx it. Kelly and I are meeting with the landlord today at 2:30pm to sign the lease. God willing, it will all go well. I must admit, the apartment is a bit out of our price range, but I think we have figured out a way to make it work. Please keep us in your prayers. Not only would I be proud to live in this place...our apartment search will be completed. Then we can just stress about moving and that's it!
2) I have been having quite a few emotional breakdowns these days. Kelly had a big attack on Sunday and Rita and I both sat there knowing exactly how she felt. I just think that we aren't ready yet to confront this "moving" thing head on. Paul has been ironically supportive throughout this entire period. I rarely cry with him, but over the last two weeks, I find that the minute he asks me how the "move" is going, I break down into hysterics. Last night he came over to my place to sleep and within 20 minutes I was sobbing about how I can't handle the fact that Rita is leaving. He just sits there saying: "I know" and "We'll get through it". I sit there with tears flowing out of my face. Eventually I just fell asleep with Paul holding me. Tears staining my pillow.
(or was that a jizz stain I saw this morning?) I know that Rita and Kelly feel these emotions too. Yet still, I am most concerned about me right now. I have never hurt this bad over someone leaving. Am I going to be alright?
3) I met someone who reads my site! My good friend, Randy, came to NYC last Friday and he met up with Rita, Paul, and I at Jakes for some cheap drinks. I was hella nervous and vomited five times on the subway. Ok, it was invisible vomit, but it still smelled like shit! I didn't know what I was going to think of him and was unsure as to the idea of connecting (in person) with a reader. In any case, the meeting went better than I could have ever imagined. Randy is quite adorable and has the personality of a genius. He made me laugh and more importantly, made me so comfortable with him. As we know, I have about zero gay male friends, and this kid is someone I hope will become my first! He is moving to NYC soon and will be applying to graduate school. I was impressed and relieved to know that my instincts were not wrong about this fella. Randy is amazing and he won the "Rita stamp of approval". Paul, on the otherhand, was a fucking weirdo all night and barely said two words. He sat there like a jealous bitch and couldn't break out of the funk to become a part of the conversation at any point. In the cab, he and I had a little spat about it and I can tell you that he definitely didn't get his dick sucked that night!
or the night after.
4) Last night I spent two hours on the phone with Mariah's roommate, Jo. I called to talk to Mariah and two hours later, Jo informs me that she wasn't at home. I have always really liked Jo, but never have the chance to see her. This weekend all of my friends are either busy working or away in Syracuse, so I made plans to hang out with her. We are to have drinks in the city sometime around 9pm. How great?!!?! She is one of the easiest people to talk to and I believe that she truly understands me when I open my mouth. I talked to her alot about Rita moving and she was nothing short of incredible about the whole thing. She let me get it off my chest and she gave me some wonderful words of encouragement. I think I am truly going to enjoy having her around once Rita takes off. I have very few friends in the city that I like to see on a regular basis and Jo is going to be one of them. I just know it!
5) I decided to keep my site the way it is. There will be no password blocking and I am not changing the link. I am doing my best at retaining my restored faith in people, but it is quite a challenge. As long as y'all behave yourselves. You know who you are!
winkles!
6) Paul's birthday is Friday. Yes, it's also on Valentine's Day. I get screwed each year! (not like I don't get screwed even when it's not his birthday. To start out the day, I ordered this
Aphrodesiac Garden for him. He LOVES plants and LOVES taking care of them. (maybe if I were a garden, he would tend to me a bit better...) This surprise should be delivered to him early in the day. I think he will really like it. After work, I am going to his apartment to take him out to a sushi lunch. After that we will probably have a nice nap and cuddle on the couch. I still have to make dinner reservations for us, but with it being Valentine's Day, I have no idea where we are going to go. Every place will be so crowded and I don't want to make the same mistake I did last year.
Click here to read February 15th's entry from last year. Being gay and going out to dinner on Valentine's Day is always a challenge. I just have to make sure that this year we do it right. Fuck you AGAIN Bill's Gay Nineties! Fucking lame ass old people homophobic bad karma livin douchebags.
So we will see! I still gotta go buy him some special little gifts. Please God let him do something nice for me.
That's probably it for right now. I'm sure there's more, but right now I gotta get some shit done.
BTW, I upgraded to Blogger Pro and then immediately asked for a refund. Be careful folks. You will not get what you wish for.
Alrighty...wish me luck at my lease signing!!! If this works out today, I will be very pleased. I can't believe that I could really be living in the heart of Times Square! This location will be so convenient for when I get into my numerous Broadway shows. I mean, I can just walk out of the stage door and into my home in a matter of minutes. (Big sigh) Can I be in a Broadway show now?
and boom.
I mean, I have been gone for so long, there is no way that you don't hate me.
Ah well.
At least I can't see or hear your anger and resentment. I will just pretend as though you don't really feel that way. (snickers)
SO HI!
Gosh. Where do I begin? So much shit is going down right now and in order to explain it all, I am going to have to do a brief synapsis of each thing. Ok? Ok.
Let 'er rip!
1) First, foremost, and most importantly, Rita is leaving NYC, two weeks from Saturday. She has been feverishly looking for a new job/apartment in Syracuse and today she found out that she has accomplished half of her goal. She and her boyfriend, Andy, will be living in what we hope will be a beautiful little house with a white picket fence and maybe a swingset in the backyard. Well, maybe not a swingset just yet...but we can still hope. She has two job interviews lined up for this Friday and if all goes well, she will be employed AND have a place to rest her pretty little red head. So, while she is hastily making plans to move, Kelly and I are doing the same. We have found a charming place right in the heart of Times Square. Can ya believe it?!?! The place is extremely small, but the bedrooms are both a good size and the bathroom is bigger than the one we currently have. The refridgerator? Yeah, it's in the living room.
This is the first apartment Kelly and I looked at and we knew immediately that we wanted to jump on it. I mean...it's in the heart of Times Square! What am I? Big and important now??? I don't want to jinx it. Kelly and I are meeting with the landlord today at 2:30pm to sign the lease. God willing, it will all go well. I must admit, the apartment is a bit out of our price range, but I think we have figured out a way to make it work. Please keep us in your prayers. Not only would I be proud to live in this place...our apartment search will be completed. Then we can just stress about moving and that's it!
2) I have been having quite a few emotional breakdowns these days. Kelly had a big attack on Sunday and Rita and I both sat there knowing exactly how she felt. I just think that we aren't ready yet to confront this "moving" thing head on. Paul has been ironically supportive throughout this entire period. I rarely cry with him, but over the last two weeks, I find that the minute he asks me how the "move" is going, I break down into hysterics. Last night he came over to my place to sleep and within 20 minutes I was sobbing about how I can't handle the fact that Rita is leaving. He just sits there saying: "I know" and "We'll get through it". I sit there with tears flowing out of my face. Eventually I just fell asleep with Paul holding me. Tears staining my pillow.
(or was that a jizz stain I saw this morning?) I know that Rita and Kelly feel these emotions too. Yet still, I am most concerned about me right now. I have never hurt this bad over someone leaving. Am I going to be alright?
3) I met someone who reads my site! My good friend, Randy, came to NYC last Friday and he met up with Rita, Paul, and I at Jakes for some cheap drinks. I was hella nervous and vomited five times on the subway. Ok, it was invisible vomit, but it still smelled like shit! I didn't know what I was going to think of him and was unsure as to the idea of connecting (in person) with a reader. In any case, the meeting went better than I could have ever imagined. Randy is quite adorable and has the personality of a genius. He made me laugh and more importantly, made me so comfortable with him. As we know, I have about zero gay male friends, and this kid is someone I hope will become my first! He is moving to NYC soon and will be applying to graduate school. I was impressed and relieved to know that my instincts were not wrong about this fella. Randy is amazing and he won the "Rita stamp of approval". Paul, on the otherhand, was a fucking weirdo all night and barely said two words. He sat there like a jealous bitch and couldn't break out of the funk to become a part of the conversation at any point. In the cab, he and I had a little spat about it and I can tell you that he definitely didn't get his dick sucked that night!
or the night after.
4) Last night I spent two hours on the phone with Mariah's roommate, Jo. I called to talk to Mariah and two hours later, Jo informs me that she wasn't at home. I have always really liked Jo, but never have the chance to see her. This weekend all of my friends are either busy working or away in Syracuse, so I made plans to hang out with her. We are to have drinks in the city sometime around 9pm. How great?!!?! She is one of the easiest people to talk to and I believe that she truly understands me when I open my mouth. I talked to her alot about Rita moving and she was nothing short of incredible about the whole thing. She let me get it off my chest and she gave me some wonderful words of encouragement. I think I am truly going to enjoy having her around once Rita takes off. I have very few friends in the city that I like to see on a regular basis and Jo is going to be one of them. I just know it!
5) I decided to keep my site the way it is. There will be no password blocking and I am not changing the link. I am doing my best at retaining my restored faith in people, but it is quite a challenge. As long as y'all behave yourselves. You know who you are!
winkles!
6) Paul's birthday is Friday. Yes, it's also on Valentine's Day. I get screwed each year! (not like I don't get screwed even when it's not his birthday. To start out the day, I ordered this
Aphrodesiac Garden for him. He LOVES plants and LOVES taking care of them. (maybe if I were a garden, he would tend to me a bit better...) This surprise should be delivered to him early in the day. I think he will really like it. After work, I am going to his apartment to take him out to a sushi lunch. After that we will probably have a nice nap and cuddle on the couch. I still have to make dinner reservations for us, but with it being Valentine's Day, I have no idea where we are going to go. Every place will be so crowded and I don't want to make the same mistake I did last year.
Click here to read February 15th's entry from last year. Being gay and going out to dinner on Valentine's Day is always a challenge. I just have to make sure that this year we do it right. Fuck you AGAIN Bill's Gay Nineties! Fucking lame ass old people homophobic bad karma livin douchebags.
So we will see! I still gotta go buy him some special little gifts. Please God let him do something nice for me.
That's probably it for right now. I'm sure there's more, but right now I gotta get some shit done.
BTW, I upgraded to Blogger Pro and then immediately asked for a refund. Be careful folks. You will not get what you wish for.
Alrighty...wish me luck at my lease signing!!! If this works out today, I will be very pleased. I can't believe that I could really be living in the heart of Times Square! This location will be so convenient for when I get into my numerous Broadway shows. I mean, I can just walk out of the stage door and into my home in a matter of minutes. (Big sigh) Can I be in a Broadway show now?
and boom.
